KAITLINS COCK.

vctorias_c_krit @ 2005-10-06T20:06:00

2005-10-07T03:07:17Z

and the hits keep coming...

Another wasted night...

2005-09-11T07:16:11Z

For real, can someone please help me make the best out of things??

I'm asking for real advice about how to actually think bout the good in things and not make into some shitty situation...

Please. and Thank you.

So Long Sweet Summer

2005-08-24T05:19:42Z

As summer is coming to an end (kinda) I am sad.
This summer has seriously been actualyl life changing for me in a way that I have learned from the good the bad and the ugly.
As I hate to admit it, I did learn from the things that hurt me the most and without them I would not have become the person I am.
So I am kinda grateful for them and wouldn't change them for the world.
I was really able to tell who my true friends are this summer and without them, I don't know where I would be at this point and they are without a doubt my best friends.
You guys have helped with me in the worst of times and I feel like there isn't anything worthy enough to pay you back.
I just hope I can keep this kind of mind with me at all times but I know that wont happen. Just the fact that I am thinking it now is helping.
So thank you summer for everything.

</3

2005-08-15T08:54:48Z

I have so many emotions right now that I think I'm going to go crazy!

Like i just had the worst/greatest week ever and I don't whether or not to be happy right now.
I am soo thankful I have the true friends that I do and thank you so much Tara for everything. You have been there for me this week like a true friend and I don't know what I would have doen without you and you will get through this rough patch right now cuz u r strong like that and I believe that you can. And to everyone else I love you guys for making me feel better and caring for me.

But now I just feel like everything is going wrong now. Like in the beginning everything was just plain shit for me and then all of a sudden alittle peice of hope came by and a month a week later....its all shit again! but now im trying to move on and not dwell on the past. (and as u can see, this moving on part is a little harder than expected)But i will...i still have soooo many questions and am sooo confused by lots of things but i hope they will all get settled soon.

so yea...comment on the other post cuz i said so and the other post makes me happy lol

vctorias_c_krit @ 2005-08-11T16:48:00

2005-08-11T23:49:17Z

Hii this is Tara..
Alex has no idea im updating for her.. soo shh..

shes in the shower.. naked.. it's extremely hott..!
well i love Alex sooo much!
and we make good smoothies and bacon!..
BFF! ya that's right homie.!

Alex is really hott!..
and she's single.. hey boys.. ya that's right.. u'd be crazy lucky for some1 like her..
anyway i love Alex more then anything..

and our hott and kinky.. naughty cops and robbers!.. aha
<33Tara

oh ps. me n alex are going to the used concert on the 20th..
so be EXTREMELY jelous!

Bye's for now.

2005-07-27T19:39:22Z

hey guys
Im leaving for Costa Rica tomorrow night
so when i get back i better have a lot of comments =)
i <3 u all!

The Big 1-5!!!

2005-07-21T05:07:17Z

LISA CAMPALONG JUST TURNED 15 TODAY PEOPLES AND YOU SHOULD ALL WISH HER A
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I LOVE U LISA!!!
<3

vctorias_c_krit @ 2005-06-21T20:27:00

2005-06-22T03:29:05Z

after everything that has gone on.........i am happy by the end of the day.
:)
thank you.

vctorias_c_krit @ 2005-06-15T22:08:00

2005-06-16T05:12:18Z

so lets get this straight shall we:
1) i need to get the shit beaten out of me to respect people
2) i have no respect for anyone
3) im beyond selfish
4) i only use you to get stuff
5) o yea and that i made it into elco....lets go celebrate.
6) ooo and i love being called anorexic by you....it gives it all its final touches

so im worth shit, i get treated like shit, o and that i treat other people like shit and thats y im not gonn a be able to have friends in the future. and thanks for telling me the news iv wanted to here for weeks in the middle of all this. that is not fair and u know it. thats prolly why u said it then. and now im gonna fail my spanish final and look at this.....im still blaming it on u and not myself. iv learned well havent i?!

2 weeks!

2005-06-11T23:32:43Z

u come home in 2 weeks and i am soooo excited!!!
I am sooo glad u r doing better and i will always
be here for u!

u have not changed a bit i love u!!!!

::Edit::

2005-05-31T05:09:48Z

Ok so that entry needed to be taken away...I was in a weird mood but thank u to all 3 of u who showed ur concern and i love u for that!

My weekend=NEEDED ALOT!!!!!

Thank u crack-bean for a schiggity schweeeeet weekend.....i think it was quite superior if i dont say so myself.-Splooom

vctorias_c_krit @ 2005-05-22T23:04:00

2005-05-23T06:05:38Z

calabasas

or

el camino?

vctorias_c_krit @ 2005-05-18T15:50:00

2005-05-18T22:51:27Z

You make me so mad!

Edit

O wait I just thought of more....bsides making me mad,
it feels like ur taking everyhing away from me
and I know I should be strong and not let it happen
but come to think of it....and ill say it...it seems
like none of it is worth saving.

Have it all....Take it all....you usually do.

vctorias_c_krit @ 2005-05-02T15:41:00

2005-05-02T22:46:08Z

All I have to say is thank god this month is over!

But ne ways....had the best fricken weekend...went to disney land with meghan, it was pretty hott! lol

And this weekend is my b day (Saturday, May 7th to be exact)...so yea, just letting u all know heheh

And this is sooo weird, I'm still stressed but not as "sad"ish as i was b4 and i hope it stays cuz i like this feeling. I feel like I can actually somewat breathe now.

So to the month of may people (bdays) I would like to say Happy Birthday to:

Morgan (april 30th, close enough)
Nicole
Jenn
Erin
Melissa
ME!

I love my 2 best friends
lol ok im good...so yea.
<3

vctorias_c_krit @ 2005-04-24T20:30:00

2005-04-25T03:45:19Z

umm so yea if u havent figured it out yet i am finally getting a hang of this myspace deal...lol (thanks to meghan!!!) lol
Lip Synch was a lotta funn and we won on Wednesday night. I was kinda upset that some people didnt go but w.e.....life goes on.
After dinner and the movies was funn. Thanks meghan, CHA CHI!, lisa, and everyone else.

I know this is gonna sound weird but w.e, i had the weirdest dream last night. That this person that shall remain nameless and i started randomly going out and i thought it was soo real and then i woke up to my mom screaming and i was literally soo sad that it was a dream cuz it was soo nice to finally have a bf and to be held and kissed and finally having someone that is there for the same reason as u, to be with that person. I loved it and then i woke up and it was gone and realized i dont have that. I dont know why all of a sudden I feel so lonely. It could b because like everyone i know is all of a sudden pairing up (not saying that in a bad way and of course i am happy for all of u) its just really weird now. ughhhh....

Plus nowadays i feel very plain and average. I want some excitement in my life. I need to do something that I know Im gonna remember for a long time. Something that I dont normally do.

Ok.thats it.

P.S. You know shit is ok with ur mom no matter what wen she gives u joints for 4/20

vctorias_c_krit @ 2005-04-13T16:44:00

2005-04-13T23:50:03Z

hahahahah

it never fails does it?
1)The lack of boys in my life is starting to bug me
2)Strike 1...2 more to go
3)Need to find a new tutor for SAT 2's
4)This is the first year where I DONT want my birthday
to come

I miss you Lissa<3

vctorias_c_krit @ 2005-03-31T19:09:00

2005-04-01T03:27:14Z

Well Im not gonna update on how im feeling or wats happening this spring break because absolutly nothing has changed except things getting to the point where they cant get any worse, but do. So im just gonna update on thoughts.

It seems like people (more of girls) these think that other girls just type shit on Lj or wherever to get attention. Most of them do and i will admit that i do think that. But there is a point where someone is trying to reach out and ask for help and all they get are comments are like "if u wanna talk im here". well obviously they wanna talk if they have the post. but then when other grls see that post or w.e they think they have to beat it by putting how much there life sucks and shit just to get the attention or more comments or w.e. its retarded. i just thought that needed to be said.

Well iv done some thinking and it brought to the conclusion that as much as i want to change my past and iv wat iv done or wanted to do, i just cant. its not gonna happen and all i can say now is that i hope for the future to b better an brighter (however the way its going now, its going to take a lot for it to be better and brighter).

O and by the way, (no names or way of relation to me will be said cuz it will make me feel bad) but SHE who shall not be named is draining me of my last ....EVERYTHING and i dont know wat to do. i need to get away cuz im about to burst. i dont know wat im gonna do and im sick of playing mind games with her and if its not her than its no way. some one please help with this problem.

This Spring break is the worst spring break of my entire life.
thanks for the VERY FEW people i saw. the time we did spend
together was funn.
im not even gonna say to call me for plans cuz i know none of u will.
doesnt matter ne more though, becuz im actually the rest of the weekend.
and dont say i could have called u, becuz thats all iv been pretty much
doing is calling other people and NO ONE calls me (xcept for like a few people who actually do wanna c me but have to flake on them cuz of other shit, im sorry!). they r true friends. ones where WE BOTH CALL EATHOTHER.
im sure u know how to pick up a fricken phone and dial my #. and if u dont have it then find out wat it is and call. cuz putting in the extra amount of work to get the # is wat friends do.

Im allowing comments for everthing on the past 2 or 3 (and this one) entries.
say wat u want bout how amazingly kool ur spring break was and wat u did. (i would really like to know)
or on other stuff like...like maybe advice....u know that couldnt hurt ne one..
or just random stuff, i dont care.
Please also comment with some music to download cuz im getting bored of the stuff in my iPod. I like it alot but its just getting boring. K Thanks.

P.S. (lol) MY DOG DOESNT HAVE CANCER!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HE'S JUST REALLY REALLY REALLY FAT!!!!!!

vctorias_c_krit @ 2005-03-28T00:36:00

2005-03-28T08:49:05Z

got new icons cuz i was bored and I wanted new ones.
well i havent seen any of my friends yet this spring break.
doesnt suprise me.
my parents finally want me to "talk" to my psychiatrist about my low frustration level and unexpressed anger.
i guess thats wat u get after yelling at ur dad and cussing
your mom out.
they are also starting to actually prepare me for college.
also my college counsler yelled at me for not having enough community serivce hours. i thought i was gonna reach across the table and smack her.
well its 12 40 and im bored.
i am inluv with the movie Crazy/Beautiful.
just thought id let u know.

I want a boyfriend.
Just someone that will call me (or I call them, either one) and we talk for hours about nothing in particular or just sit there and listen to eachother breathe, that would be nice for awhile.
and I realized my birthday is coming up eventually (May 7th to be exact).
I think its just so much more to be stressed over, especially if your turning 16.
ughhhhhhhhhhh.......

vctorias_c_krit @ 2005-03-23T21:09:00

2005-03-24T05:26:53Z

just thought id let u know that now
since im not allowing comments ill be doing more posts,
i guess, than usual. You have been warned.

Still feel like shit. But I might be more
verbal about it. Good luck.
Parents are acting like high schoolers.
Hiding shit from me (that has to do with me),
talking about me behind my back, attempting to be
nice but is just more annoying, and just being really
retarded.
Lost some people. Mostly stolen. Used to it by now.
I miss my best friend and for the very first time, in
all these years of going to different skools, I feel
like we are drifting off. My throat hurts from holding back
the tears.
I have no spring break plans. While more than half of my skool
(and my sister) are going to Cabo. That makes me laugh.
I better do alot of shopping. I need it.
Hopefully I wont be too lazy to go for my permit during break.
Today I heard this grl complain about her new car her parents bought her.
Didn't suprise me much.
I hate people who do that. But I do realize now that actual things cant bring
happiness. I thought it did wen i got the things I wanted (after a period of
time) but didnt really change things.
I need to get out of my house.
Movies are starting to really annoy me.
So are alot of people. But then again I might be annoying alot of people. w/e.
I miss my sister still. I feel like a broken record.
Now after reading this, Im pretty sure you still want to hang out with me.

* Need to add this.
Be greatful for the cars and other shit u get after getting ur liscence or in most cases before u even get ur permit. If you really bitch about not getting the car you wanted before you get your permit, your in for a rude awakening for the real world. I would love for people who have these cars to see what its really like to not get your car till after your freshman year in college. So be greatful and dont take shit for granted.

Another thing....
Its like I cant fucking be normal if I sit in my room for a few hours. I get shit for not acting like my hyper self. WTF is ur problem!?!? im not a bitch if im not laughing or acting hyper. im sorry, ok. im sorry. stop being a bitch to me and saying that im "secluding myself in my room". if i wanna sit in here for as long as i want then i will. leave me alone. i didnt do ne thing to u. im not a bitch to u, so stop calling me one. im in here for like 2 or maybe a lil more hours and im already being bashed for it.

vctorias_c_krit @ 2005-03-17T21:42:00

2005-03-18T05:47:58Z

Excuse me but can I be you for a while
My dog won't bite if you sit real still
I got the anti-Christ in the kitchen yellin' at me again
Yeah I can hear that
Been saved again by the garbage truck
I got something to say you know
But nothing comes
Yes I know what you think of me
You never shut-up
Yeah I can hear that

But what if I'm a mermaid
In these jeans of yours
With her name still on it
Hey but I don't care
Cause sometimes
I said sometimes
I hear my voice
And it's been here
Silent All These Years

So you found a girl
Who thinks really deep thougts
What's so amazing about really deep thoughts
Boy you best praya that I bleed real soon
How's that thought for you
My scream got lost in a paper cup
You think there's a heaven
Where some screams have gone
I got 25 bucks and a cracker
Do you think it's enough
To get us there

Cause what if I'm a mermaid
In these jeans of yours
With her name still on it
Hey but I don't care
Cause sometimes
I said sometimes
I hear my voice
And it's been here
Silent All These...

Years go by
Will I still be waiting
For somebody else to understand
Years go by
If I'm stripped of my beauty
And the orange clouds
Raining in head
Years go by
Will I choke on my tears
Till finally there is nothing left
One more casualty
You know we're too easy Easy Easy

Well I love the way we communicate
Your eyes focus on my funny lip shape
Let's hear what you think of me now
But baby don't look up
The sky is falling
Your mother shows up in a nasty dress
It's your turn now to stand where I stand
Everybody lookin' at you here
Take hold of my hand
Yeah I can hear them

But what if I'm a mermaid
In these jeans of yours
With her name still on it
Hey but I don't care
Cause sometimes
I said sometimes
I hear my voice

And it's been here
Silent All These Years
I've been here
Silent All These Years

Been listening to that song alot.
Things are still pretty shitty.
My house confuses me.
Im glad I have the friends I have. Seriously.
Still pretty confused with shit.
Doing nothing for Spring Break.
I want to attempt to go for my permit
but I'm too lazy, even for that. Don't know why.
Theres one thing that hasen't hit me yet that I just found out
and I'm really really really scared how I'm going to react to it
once it finally does it hit me.
Ok I'm done.

vctorias_c_krit @ 2005-03-03T22:24:00

2005-03-04T06:57:58Z

ok all im asking is why?

It was all ok, I was finally discovering who I really was and whats important to me but then all of a sudden it went downhill.

What the fuck did I do to deserve this shit!!??!

I work hard for my grades which are now slowly going down the drain as well as my future, I try to be the best friend I can and working my ass off doing so and I can see how well thats working out, and at home when I wanna talk I do but if I don't then I get yelled at for having an attitude or for being disrespectful.

I seriously want to know what is wrong?....Is there something that needs to be said, is there something that needs to be done? IS THERE NE THING I CAN DO?!

Why are the "best years of my life" sooo shitty!? I know I can change that but whenever I do something worse happens...I really don't understand this.
I know I learn from my mistakes, but apparently I just keep making them left and right and I havent had any time to do some redeeming.

I love all the people who have been there and that I'v gone to for advice.....You guys are the ones that keep me as sane as I can be. You guys really would know if you are the ones I am talking about and if your not sure, then ask yourself, have i done ne thing to offend alex?, if so wat?, is alex keeping her distance from me?......those are just a few to question yourself.

Now looking back on what I'v wrote makes me seem very conceited cuz all I keep saying is "I"....but now I don't care. I'll be as conceited as the rest to get my point across if I have to. It seems like I'v been putting whats important to the back and what I WANT to be important to the front. But what I want to be important isen't making me happy at all. And I just cant seem to flip the 2 now.

As said in a recent convo. with a very good friend, I wish I was set with a magic marker. Making colors change when I want and erasing the not needed. O that would be the life. But its not as simple as that and I see that now.

All I want to know is why this is happening to me and what I can do to change it?

I am not willing to change myself for this but to change my surroundings. So if I change a surrounding that doesnt fit into your busy schedules, then the pressure is put on you if your willing to stick with me.

This is the last comment entry for a while because I just cant seem to want any comments on these entries now...so whatever you want to say to me, you better say it now or forever hold your peace. (Or just IM me)

I dont like my bubble. Can I be in yours?

2005-03-01T03:12:14Z

Vice= Soo much fun!!! plus I finally have nails and I'm obssessed with them...no pix though, go visit alysias LJ for that.

I want my friend here...I need to talk to her cuz its been too long
and I have too much that needs to be said, plus she better bring it this weekend cuz its on!...hahaha

TAURUS
April 20-May 20

You'll feel a little depressed at the start of the month--
but that'll end when the Sun enters you birth sign on the 19!
Not only will you mood swing upward, but near the lunar eclipse
in Scorpio on the 24th, you'll fall in love with someone who
seems alittle dangerous.

It's like Seventeen magazine read my mind, except for the last part...
I dont know where they got that, but that just makes me laugh.

O yes and the chance to see my sister (who I havent seen in what feels like a hundred years) was taken away from me....I am saddend by this.

Just stating certainties.

2005-02-22T08:38:42Z

Well after my "date" with Parissa tonight, thinking has brought me to the same conclusion to where i have been before. I don't like high school. I know this is how I feel and I am certainly not bitching, but it wouldn't matter if I was because I can if I want. But back to subject, I wish I were out of high school. When I'm older, looking back on it all will seem like all four years was just one big phase as it is. Moving onto something bigger and better than the time wasted on stupid drama-filled days. Its not worth my time yet I spend soo much of it still worrying. Everyone does it. They say its not worth their waking hours or its wasting their breaths yet they all do it. Everyody is a hypocrite in this never-ending cycle of just drama in this stage of life. I want to go beyond all of it and just worry about my actual life and whats going to happen to it. I want to be in college where I make new friends from out of state and literally start all over again. Living on my own sounds like an adventure all in its own and, yes, even paying rent. Or being in a sorority and meeting new people and just living in kind of my own new and improved world. I know its going to happen but I wish it came sooner than later because I need it now. I know I'm definetly not mature enough to be there but, if I did act the mature person I could be, I wouldn't have as much fun. I want to be "mature-fun" and "mature-mature". It probably all sounds like a big bunch of mesh from what I'm talking bout but it really does make sense. Like of course I want to still be friends with the people I am with now...but we all will have to eventually move on and make new friends because if you don't then you'll just be a figment of the past. Plus you all think I have no mature bone in my body but I do, I just most likely prefer not to show it. These are the years I am the most irresponsible, supposed to be the most out-going person I can be but when I am, I just get trampled on for it. So I guess its time to turn that to a different level and be somewhat mature about it. But whatever, this all can seem like just a bunch of bable but I'm just stating what I feel. Just 2 more long years of this phase and it will all be over. Hopefully 2 years can go by quicker than it sounds.

P.S. I miss my sister soo much and I wish I could see her and the one time where I have the closest chance I get it taken away from me from the one thing that just won't end and keeps, seriously, taking the life outta me!

vctorias_c_krit @ 2005-02-16T17:30:00

2005-02-17T01:40:33Z

My Vday wasent bad....it was decent. Well Iv been really stressed lately but I'm sure I can deal with it.
But I am very happy right now becuz i just got a new cell phone!!!...hehehe
ITs a flip-phone....o yea!, go me!!....lol
But I think the highlight of these past few days was the day before Valentines Day and I got very mad at my daddy becuz he can b very frustrating...so after he hung up on me (which was not the greatest idea...) i got...uhhh....sumwhat upset and slammed the phone down and was still VERY angry.... o this phone is a very very cheap touch phone with glass and then a layer of thick plastic over it .....so, still being extremly angry, i sumwat smashed my fist into the phone causing it to kinda break....hehehe....so i have to now buy a new phone for my parents! :)
So hints to all.... NEVER HANG UP ON ME!!! .....just a lil reminder....

So I saw this on everyonwes LJ and it amused me so I had to do it...also sorry its not under a cut or link or w/e cuz i dont know how to and im too lazy too....

vctorias_c_krit

The LJ friendsCollage.
Original by pratibha75 and teemus. Modifications by whitez.

O and I just sliced my finger on a mirror.....my finger is numb.

vctorias_c_krit @ 2005-02-08T18:00:00

2005-02-09T02:07:15Z

Ummm.... Who gets to take her first ballet class since last February on Thursday!?

ME!!!!!

Ummm.... Who gets to take her first POINTE class since last February on Saturday!?

ME!!!!!!!

IM FINALLY BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!......*well to dancing that is*....hehehehhehehehe

O yea....i also wanted to say that I dont care where i am taking the classes but as long that i am...i have missed this for like a year and half-ish and i finally have it back (with doctors consent)!!!....Im soo happy i think im gonna pee in my pants....i know that right wen i go back i might not b where i was wen i left (which wasent pretty far but farther than i was now) but i dont care....i might not have the perfect feet and they might look like shit...BUT I DONT CARE!!!....I am finally able to take classes and finally do wat i have been doing since iv been 3!....i luv it and thats all. Nothing else..Iv been patient (sumwhat) and i took the time to get better and now i am and i am back!!!!!!!!

*I hope I can find my old pointe shoes ;)